The PCOS Diaries: Why I’m Finally Telling My Story

Hi friend 🤍

If you’re reading this, you probably found your way here because of PCOS… infertility… hormones… weight struggles… or maybe just the quiet ache of wanting something your body isn’t cooperating with.

Before anything else — I want you to know something:

You are not alone here.

This blog has been on my heart for a long time. I kept telling myself I would start it “when things were better”… when I had lost the weight… when my cycles were regular… when I had a positive pregnancy test to celebrate.

But the truth is — I’m still in the middle of it.

And maybe that’s exactly why this space needs to exist.

My PCOS Reality

I was diagnosed with PCOS at 13, and like so many women, it came with more than just a label.

It came with:

• irregular cycles

• exhaustion that hits like a wall

• weight gain that feels impossible to fight

• skin changes and unwanted hair

• mood swings

• and then later in life, I discovered the emotional rollercoaster of trying to conceive

  
  

Some days I feel motivated and strong. Other days I stare at a negative test and wonder what I’m doing wrong.

If you’ve ever felt like your body is working against you… I see you.

The Complicated Part: Infertility

I am already a mama — a Step mama, which is a mama and I am so grateful for that blessing.

But my husband and I are praying for a baby. A baby that is MY flesh and blood. Not that I am saying Alma isn't mine, She is but she isn't JUST mine. I have to walk that very thin line of not being her mother but being her step mother.

And there’s something uniquely painful about wanting to grow your family while also feeling guilty for wanting more.

You feel grateful. You feel hopeful. You feel impatient. You feel confused.

All at the same time.

That tension is heavy.

The Weight of It All

PCOS doesn’t just affect your ovaries.

It affects:

• your confidence

• your marriage

• your energy

• your relationship with food

• your faith

I’ve cut out soda. I’m trying to drink more water. I’m learning to move my body in ways that don’t destroy my knees. I’m trying to make small changes instead of extreme ones.

Some weeks I do great.

Some weeks I’m just surviving.

And I’m done pretending that healing is linear.

Where Faith Comes In

My relationship with God is the only reason I haven’t completely spiraled some days.

Do I understand the timing? No. Do I love the waiting? Absolutely not. Do I know why I have to suffer while others are popping babies out left and right? No.

But I believe that God sees me in it.

So this blog will include prayer. It will include honesty. It will include tears. It will include hope.

Even when hope feels fragile.

Why This Blog Exists

I created The PCOS Diaries for women who:

• Feel like their body is broken

• Are overwhelmed by conflicting advice

• Are trying to lose weight with hormones working against them

• Are staring at negative tests

• Are praying in the quiet

This space will be:

🌿 Real 💛 Faith-filled 📓 Practical 🤍 Honest

No perfect highlight reel. Just truth in the middle of it.

If You’re in the Waiting

If you found this at 2am after Googling symptoms…If you’re counting DPO days like your life depends on it…If you’re exhausted and don’t know what else to try…

Stay.

We’ll walk this together.

With love,

Libby 💛