Dear Younger Me: The Girl Who Was Angry at God

Dear Younger Me,

You’re going to be angry.

You’ll ask why other women get what you beg for. You’ll ask why your prayers feel unanswered. You’ll wonder if you’re forgotten.

You’re not.

God is not intimidated by your anger. He is not shocked by your tears. He is not disappointed in your questions.

Faith isn’t pretending you’re fine. Faith is staying when you want to walk away.

There will be nights when you cry so hard you can barely pray.

Some nights all you will be able to say is, “Why?”

And believe it or not, that still counts as prayer.

You will wrestle with God in ways you never expected. You will question things you were always told not to question. You will feel guilt for feeling angry at the One you’re supposed to trust.

But listen closely.

God would rather have your honest anger than your fake devotion.

He doesn’t need you to be polished. He just wants you present.

One day you will realize something that changes everything.

God was never silent. He was just speaking in ways pain made hard to hear.

Through the strength you didn’t know you had. Through the compassion growing inside you.

Through the women who will read your words someday and feel less alone.

Your story isn’t being ignored.

It’s being written.

And one day, the same tears that made you question God will become the words that lead someone else back to Him.

So, keep talking to Him. Even when you're angry. Even when you're confused. Even when you're exhausted.

Especially then.

Because faith isn’t the absence of doubt.

Faith is choosing to stay in the conversation with God, even when your heart is breaking.

And one day, you’ll understand this:

God never left the room.

You were never praying alone.

Love,

The woman you’re still becoming